Last carol of year 2009 ~merry christmas~

Today was the last day of carolling and just like yesterday, I carolled at Conrad Centennial. It has a really nice view and lighting all around the hotel. The restroom is incredibly beautiful, I give it a 5 star. I can even sleep in there haha. We sang through a list of carol like we usually do, but without scores. However, overall the performance we gave received positive feedbacks from the hotel manager, more like feedbacks from the dwellers of Conrad. Before going down the lobby to perform, we had to walked down a long, circular flight of stairs. So it was pretty scary especially for us girls who were wearing heels. But thankfully no one fell or tumbled. Its really fun and our voices can be heard clearly thus allowing us to blend in well with one another. In contrast with performing at the malls, its quieter and the audiences present could hear us well. Practically, the people at the lobby of the hotel were focused on just our singing compared to in the mall where it was much more crowded and noisy. After our session ended, we had a debrief from our music conductor Gabriel and also compliments from the hotel manager himself. Each of us received a Conrad teddy bear~!^^ as our christmas gifts woohoo~ its pretty small but its cute. I will take a picture of it and post it at facebook later. Last but not least, I would like to thank everyone for such awesome experience by singing together at various venues and most importantly, to be able to share our Christmas joys with our smiling faces and the melodies of Christmas. Hohoho~ Merry Christmas of year 2009! Lets roll again next year and also the following years to come. Joy to the world~! =D

Here we come a carolling~

Friday (18th Dec 2009) was my first ever carolling session with NUS Choir, or perhaps my first ever carolling session in my life ^^. We performed at Marina Square which we started at 7pm. We had to report at 6pm but I reached there at 6.30pm due to heavy traffic which I did not expect. But it was not only me, there were few other choristers who were late too. Thus, there goes the warning about our punctuality. To make matters worse, we did not give a good performance, in other words, a performance which was far below par to the standards of a NUSChoir T.T. I did sing my part well since I memorised it but a choir is always a choir; a combination of four different sections which adds up together to form a colourful hues of melodies. When one person fumbled on his or her part, it will affect the others as well. Anyway, we still somehow managed to give an overall OK performance but of course, to our music director, it was not good news. Now skipping to today's carolling, the performance today in my opinion, was at the very least much better than the first. Together with other choristers, we performed at West Coast Plaza, a smaller and lesser people shopping mall, not to mention nearer to where I stay too XD. I enjoyed today's carolling and I can feel the christmas energy swirling around us as we were getting more and more excited throughout the list of songs we sung. We started sweating as well as blood rushed in our bodies when we sang fast carols 0.0. Nah...we were all sweaty because the air-conds are not strong enough compared to Marina Square. Ok, better don't complain >.< All in all, I still love carolling, going through ups and downs with the seniors and other freshies and most importantly, spreading the joy and merry spirit of Christmas, the day when Christ shed his blood and life to forgive our sin and His reborn with our singing. May the folks out there enjoyed and loved our carollings ^^ . Merry Christmas~!

Cycle of Life

Christmas is nearing and year 2010 is approaching. When the minute tick pass 12am on the last day of December, a whole new lot of experiences along with ambiguities and doubts will soon recycle itself back in daily life; another year had passed and a new year begins. When I was younger, I was always eager for New Year's Day as the day, to me, brings about new resolutions and new aims, to put it simply, a new life, or so I thought. In fact, it was not any different from the past. Everything laid upon me were and are ironically, incessantly the same. It is just the matter of application of life in different situations. Perhaps if we put it in a more specific way, we can say that particular resolution or objective is entirely new and different, something to look forward to. For example, if I resolved to save up $5k in 6 months, it is something different and vary from the past goals I aimed and achieved if that is the resolution I inclined to reach due to working for the very first time. However, generally we still have to make great efforts and push ourselves no matter what kind of resolutions we have. It is still about going back to ground zero and climbing back up the ladder to reach the top after one had achieved his or her goal. Life is actually moving in circles, picking up vital tenets of life which we may have missed out or went unnoticed in the past, and also correcting our mistakes with the opportunities we will have. All of it are repeating, and our task is only to unlearn and relearn to shunt out mistakes and wrongdoings. From that, we will be able to mature and improve ourselves to become a more well-honed person from time to time.

A night which will forever be engraved in my heart

Yesterday, 3rd of December 2009, was a night which I will bring to my grave. Fun, laughter, food, friends, family and happiness were all brought together. Wai ling was the first person to reach my house (with her watermelon ^^). Then, we chatted and did a little preparation until Bryan and Yee Sing came. Half an hour later, few more people reached and my house began to loom with shrieks and laughter XD. It was indeed a memorable night for me. From playing cards to counting numbers, and eating one plateful of beehoon and eggs to drinking cocktails as punishments, all of us laughed, giggled, smiled and practically shouted at each other ^^. The whole thing was fun and jovial, acting as a magnet to restrain me from flying back to singapore T.T (I really wanna continue staying for at least until another week!!). However, I am still glad to be able to celebrate our friendship banquet before leaving home again. Thank you so, so much everyone for allocating your time and energy to come for this potluck! Without you, this potluck will never be the same. =) I hope we will be able to have another gathering like this during the next semester break! ^^ Take care everyone and all the best till we meet again~ *muakz*

~pek yee~

Finals around the corner

Its 2 more weeks to finals!!! Then I will be able to fly back home! My last paper will be on the 26th, 9-11am. So, I'm taking an evening flight back! Although it is pretty hectic and taxing these days due to the amount of revision I HAVE to do, but, still I can't hardly wait for the last paper to end. Just want to get it over with ^^ I'm so gonna utilize the 10 days time fully with my family and friends! Wait for my return guys~and we shall rock Subang together XD. yeah!!

A web connection

It's Saturday. This means that another day had passed. And a new day had begun. But the truth is, nothing much has changed since the day I started living in Singapore. I still eat, sleep, study and dawdle every single day which has been my lifestyle since young. The only thing that change is the environment. The workload, stress, people, education style and also, the food, all differs from what I had back home. From the outlook of me, I looked like an adaptable person, assimilating to the lifestyle without fail no matter where I go, just like the time I spend in NS for 2 months. In fact, it contradicts to how I actually feel. Deep in my heart, I cannot run away from the web, which connects myself to my family and friends to the very core . The web, build up from the hardwork and sweat by the spider, where it is coded by the intensity of memories leads to a strong and resistant network, tying us together. There are times it is shaken by rough winds and thunderstorms but it will not break, forcing me to face-to-face with the adversities which crossed my paths, not allowing me to break free and runaway. It was painful, trying to break free was impossible as the web tightens and and entangle around me, making me breathless and suffocated. This is then I realized, this weight of feelings, is the driving force for me to live all the time. Without such pain, I would not have realized how important are my family and friends to me. The web is like a protection, preventing me from straying away from who I really am and as a reminder that it is alright to be myself. As I learn the importance of the connectivity, I struggle less within the web and allow the spider to continue its webbing process regardless how strong or tremendous force which comes upon my path. Because, now I know as time goes by, the web will grow stronger and thicker, eventually covering me like a shell, not allowing me to get hurt by the storms anymore. And it is this moment, that I know I will transform into a person who will stand strong and stick to my virtues no matter what happens in the future.

The 7 days of shining moments

OK....I admit that it has been such a long time since I update my blog. I have my reasons so people, please accept my apology for your long-awaiting moment. ^^

Today, yes, TODAY...is Saturday. The LAST day of my recess week in Subang. For the past few days, I had been hanging out with my family and friends, and yes, ditching my assignments and revision at the same time. But it was these past few days, I for once in two months, had a good laugh. The stress in me shrinked into one corner of my mind as I stepped foot in Subang since I left to Singapore in end of July. I followed my parents back to my mom's hometown on Sunday and came back on Monday night. On the following day, I went to Mcd with panda bro and Ping Ying before meeting up the rest at 3K for badminton. It was and still is refreshing to be able to meet my friends (even when I flashback the memories of our time spend together). My week passed on with an outing on Wednesday at Pyramid, our usual hang-out place. I had lunch and dinner with them and also did some shopping with Grace (Jen Chong and Bryan were so KIND to accompany us ^^). Got to Secret Recipe later for a chat and a cake-eating session XD before having our dinner at Kim Gary. While later most went back to their homes, five of us (Me, Ying Wai, Ping Ying, Yew Ken and Grace) watched The Ugly Truth. It was a nice and humorous movie, really funny, and its worthwhile to watch if you ask me. =D On Thursday night, after shopping at Mid Valley with my parents at night, I went for a drink at Kayu, Taipan. It was around 10+pm but I was glad to be able to make it. I also had breakfast with pretty much the same gang the next day at the SAME place. lol! However, no matter how it turned out and no matter how frustrated am I for not doing my homework, I will not regret the days I spend with my dear friends and family for this whole week. The memories made are like my diamond-stars which glitters and shines upon me even when the world darkens and turned upside down. So, I really, really thank you! my fellow friends even if you do not came to read this post. My heartest gratitude to all of you and wish you all the best for your future undertakings~ we shall meet again in end of November ^^ Till then, take care *hugz*

~pekyee~

A mixture of feelings, like the rainbow colours when spinned together become a total whiteness

I woke up today, reluctantly getting off my bed to my study table to switch on my laptop. Laptop, yes, the only thing that will keeps me wide awake. So, as usual, as I log on to my Nus account, the first thing I always check is my NUSmail and IVLE. Well, guess what? I got selected to be part of the NUS choir family! And what more, a soprano singer. I was jovial and my heart really leaped when the news sinked into my mind. But this moment of happiness only lasted for a short while. I had to go to NUS sports complex along with a few of my friends to check the booking session for the courts. Not going to elaborate about it, because it will just bore you. It is just for the upcoming sports day event with NTU. After that, I went to the library and did some chemistry revision. Due to the fact that I did not revise even once after this week's lecture, I had to start my revision no matter what, or else, it will never begin. >.< Later on, I had Biodiversity practical, a field trip to Kent Ridge Park to learn the features and specificities of plants and some animals in order to be able to classify them in the future. It was a pretty long walk, but the trip was overall, a fun and beneficial one. Now, I will be able to tell my friends about plants in depth! Hope this statement will not shoo you guys away. Haha! After the field trip, I rushed to the piano ensemble, but it came to a disappointment. The room was not spacious, and there were so many people! I almost suffocated in the midst of the crowd. Me and Joan left before it even ended as we could not stand the crowd. We ended up heading back to PGP and had our dinner at the old canteen with Wai Chien and others who we bumped into. All in all, I felt happy, exhausted, hyper, bleary, disappointed, sleepy, etc, and these feelings lead to point zero, numb. Now as I'm typing this, I really want to ditch everything away and dive into a seaside and have a good swim. But, I don't think I have the energy left to swim anyway. Anyway care to throw me a float? =)

It begins!

It has entered the third week since I started staying here in NUS. So, Im already adapted to the lifestyle here =). Yesterday (Tuesday), I had my first lecture at 8am for "Samurai, Geisha & Yakuza", followed by another lecture at 4pm for Biodiversity. Each lasted almost 2 hours. The schedule is not hectic yet because the tutorials are only starting on the 3rd week of the academic timetable. So far, the lecturers are good. They are pretty humorous which at least will prevent me from dozing off. The coursemates I got to know are really cool and intelligent people. I hope I can keep up as more practicals and assignments will be thrown flat to us. (lol) Moving on to today's lesson, I had japanese language lecture. Name of the lecturer, Saito Yukiko sensei =). As for japanese, the tutorials which Im gonna have in the near future are strenous as I will have 5hours of tutorial weekly, which is divided into 3 tutorial classes per week. sigh~ While I am typing this blog, a man came to repair my study light! So, now I have my table light back. No more straining my eyes to do my reading. Hence, in my opinion, embarking the education in NUS is really fascinating and exhilarating. Eventhough at times it can be really exhausting however, in the end, taking this huge, courageous step into this competitive community, is indeed, a worthy decision.

Conformation of oneself to a new community

Today is already Saturday. The first day I checked in was on 27th of July, which was a Monday. The day I stepped into the campus as a student. From long queues for registration to showroom by ambassadors. Everything was pretty much a hassle on the first day. However, I got to settle down few days later. Eventhough, I know that more are going to come in the near future such as lab practicals, tutorials, activities, etc, which pretty much will take up most of my time. I think the only day I can allocate time for myself is Sunday, or maybe not. Organisational and well-structured planning will be vital at this point. I have to learn to grasp it as soon as possible. >.< All in all, the people here are mostly friendly and sociable considering the different backgrounds we all have. Apart from that, the university has a huge, condusive central library and reading areas. I will upload some photoes pertaining to the surroundings of NUS and my hostel later.

Modules I have to take for this semester:

1) Biodiversity (my bio classmates, look at what I have to study again...)

2) General physiology

3) Chemistry for life sciences

4) #English for academic purposes (failed qet..thats why I have to take T.T)

there are other two more which are elective modules. Will update it after I received the confirmation of modules. =)

*lots of love to my family and friends*

Moving on, minute by minute where our dreams lead us to

There was once a saying goes, "When a life is borned, death awaits". I personally find it true. If there is no death, the existence of mortal life is zero. As we live as our current "us", we tend to forget some of the things that matters most to us, in other words, deviation. Family, friends, buddies and pals, money, belongings, pets, etc, as we lived by all these factors, we are still originally destined to accomplish one goal. It is none other than the fulfillment of our dreams. All life live only once. Whether there are people who believe human race are actually reincarnation of the past or send down by heaven to watch over the earth, we will only remember what we did and said on earth in this hour when we are still breathing through our lungs. No guarantees on what will happen after we meet the finish line of our lives. Therefore, as I put my thoughts on this matter, I put my own resolve to the very top of my mind, to ensure that I will achieve what I want to do in the next few years. Time and fate might trick us off our shoes. Render us unsustainable and weak. Eventhough it is difficult to come out from the muddy marshes that we might fall into, we must not forget the one purpose we are born here, that is, to achieve our dreams. And, I believe, that strong resolution and determination will whisk away all bushes and thorns, to allow a beautiful flower to blossom. A flower that shines brightly under both moonlight and the sun. All in all, to my friends or anyone who read this post, remember your aims and your purpose of your existence. For those who haven't realise their own goals, do not surrender or forfeit. Keep on believing and extend your hands to the people around you, and you will definitely find your path. Have faith in ourselves, and together, we will make the world a better place even if its just a tiny bit. =)

p/s: these are the videos when we (me, pingying, bryan and wai chien) were in summit on 19/7/2009. take a look~

me and bryan snatching for the cheese, eventually I made his drop into the sugar solution XD

Decision making, is and always a tough one

In every person's life, there will always come a day where we have to make huge decisions. It is just the matter of time. However, when the day finally arrives, it plainly gives us headaches, sleepless nights, frustration and for worse scenario, no appetite to eat. We have to think from every bit of perspective of views to consider and compare for one and only purpose, that is, making a final decision. In my case, the question lies on, whether to go or not to go? I was surfing the internet like usual when I decided to check on the upu website and stated there, the result of the appeal for upu is out! So, I logged in and checked that I am offered applied chemistry in UM, the 1st out of 2 choices of courses that I filled in. At the same time, my registration letter for NUS arrived. Honestly, I already did all preparations needed for enrolling in NUS end of this month, including the pre-registration. Even the bus tickets to Singapore for QET had already been bought. Initially, I never really put any hope for my appeal for UPU. But, currently, in this situation, I actually feel myself is at a lost, wondering how am I going to end up in an ultimate decision in just another day? Will I be able to decide on a road which I am going to take without having any regrets in the future? Or both paths laid in front of me will eventually lead me to one same final stop? Now, this is what makes a decision difficult to handle, or maybe not? I wonder.

Seafield's Canteen Day and laughter~

This morning, I drove out at 9.30am, ready to pick up Mr. Bryan Kwon and Mr. Lee Wai Chien from their houses. We met up with Ping Ying and her friend, Ryan at the school's gate ^^. The canteen day was crowded with people everywhere. Students, teachers, parents, friends from other schools, etc. We also get to meet Pn.Thenmoli, Pn.Poh, Kang Kang ^^ (busy with his calls), Pn.Ang (or Ung...can't remember) and also Jen Chong's mother. Not forgetting Shang Shi and his friend, Edmund (correct me if I spelt it wrongly). We started out with myself buying sushi from a sushi stall, the taste is not too bad but the rice was a bit mushy and soggy (I think they put a little too much volume of water). After that, we kind of walked around the school, scouting for delicious-looking food. In the end, Ping Ying, Wai Chien and I ended up eating maggi-mee dry noodles bought from a stall, rm2 for each cup. On the other hand, Bryan bought a steak, and it was difficult for him to bite. He even broke two plastic forks and a wooden stick while trying to poke or cut it. Eventually, he just chucked the whole piece of steak into his mouth! Poor Bryan. It was hilarious as you can see from the video below. Later on, I fetched Bryan home. Wai Chien walked back as we strolled to the wrong row of houses where we thought I parked my car. Lucky for him, since it was nearer to his house. All in all, we had a great time in school. Watch the videos posted below to get a bigger picture of the event. Bon jour~

videos taken by ~pekyee~

An incident!!

It was 10pm. My parents and I went out for a late dinner at nirvana (usj 9 bussiness centre). That night, I decided to give my parents a ride to and fro. On our way back after dinner, when I was nearing the uphill junction to turn out from usj9 bussiness centre, I had a minor car incident. Now, the reason for it was because, I was too focused on my right side for upcoming cars. So, without realising, I was a little too far to the left. My dad pretty much shouted for me to brake the car and I did. But, it was a little too late as I could hear the sound of the car pressed towards the curve divider. A scratchy sound. I just reversed the car and continue our way back home. Once we reached home, I quickly get off and checked my sister's car condition. It looked a bit dented at the side near the tyre but is not obvious. However, it was pretty dark so I could not confirm the exact condition of the car. Thinking back, I was lucky that there was not even a single car when I had the incident. Or else, it could have been worse. Hence, in conclusion, this incident taught me to focus on all sides whenever I want to turn into any junctions, and also, to improve my side parking. I pretty much had a lecture from my parents, but they did not scold me or raised their voices when they correct my way of driving. So, last but not least, I also want to thank them for tolerating with my amateur driving ^^. Therefore, I hereby promised that I will not repeat the same mistake. *peace*

Taking a night-out

Four of us (Ping Ying, Bryan, Wai Chien and myself) went to summit for a walk, followed by a hang-out at 3K's night market. While we got ourselves some delicacies (except for Bryan due to his "condition" ^^) and honey-jelly drink (my first time drinking it), Bryan also bought some fruits and veggies, which I found it pretty amusing during the whole process. You can ask the other witnesses too =). Below are some videos I took. I couldn't manage to record a video when we were at the night market due to own safety purposes, unable to take the risk of taking a video in a crowded night market. But, I hope you can picture how our outing went. Enjoy~

videos taken by ~pekyee~

Reminiscense

from top to bottom:

1) yum char with Marcus at the Curve

2) Marcus trying out the marcchiato ^^

3) My 19th bday outing at Pyramid, Secret Recipe

4) Natalie's 20th bday celebration

5) yum char at lorong 100 tahun

videos taken by ~pekyee~

Walking towards tomorrow

Picture taken and edited by Byran Kwon.

Point of Separation

Today, that is wednesday (24th of June 2009), I went out for the last outing before my friends leave for their respective universities. While some are taking flights, some are also driving to their destinations. The outing was and is, a heart-wrenching day for me, as time passed just like rain washes over the mountains. First, we had lunch at Pasta de Gohan, ate until real full ^^. Then, the plan is followed by separating into two groups, the guys (except Bryan) went for the pool and the girls went shopping. After that, we gathered back once again before separating into two groups again, that is, bowling and the other, continue shopping. Since I have nothing left to buy, I went for bowling. The 1st round of the game was a complete disaster, haha, but I managed to keep up in the 2nd round though, by winning the 2nd round (yay! defeated bryan and panda bro ekeke). Then, after bowling, some guys went for archery and some of us just watched them played. Bryan was pretty consistent ^^. Later around 7pm or so, we decided to have dinner at Sakae Sushi. Eventhough Grace was not feeling well mid-way through the dinner, but everything was fun. We chatted, we laughed, we joked, talked about all kinds of stuff, and before we realised, minute by minute, the time passed quickly. Before we knew it, it was time to part and this was the moment where everyone gave their wishes to one another. We also took tonnes of pictures and did group hugs ^^. Well, no matter where we go, or when, I believe that all of us will remember this day and cherish it in the bottom of our heart. God bless all of you my dear friends, and all the best in your future undertakings =). *hugz*

Absolute zero of nothingness

The result of the upu is out! And...nope! I didn't get anything. Not given a course out of all 8 choices. Some may say I made the wrong choices for the courses. However, IMO what is wrong and what is right? I only put the courses that I can accept from them, is that a crime? Courses like microbiology and biochemistry, I thought I might be able to get it at the very least, but an ABSOLUTE reject. Unsuccessful. Even my friends who scored so well in their STPM got some courses which are actually meant for average scorers initially. I wonder what happened. Did the application for USM causes all this ruckus? Will I actually able to get into one of their places if I hadn't applied for USM? Go figure. Right now, I'm just left with the option of going to NUS. Its a reputable university worldwide but my family will have to burden themselves to support for my accommodation and living expenses in Singapore, and I really didn't want to end up like this but with the situation right now, all I can say is, a total disappointment. Just pray that the appeal through e-rayuan will have a fruitful result. Or else, like any other malaysian chinese, I will too end up staying in Singapore.

NS Gathering and a Git!

I went for a gathering with my NS friends today who came all the way from kajang and Malacca to meet up at Sunway Pyramid. We had lunch at Gasoline and talked about loads of stuff, from academics to nonsensical jokes. Now, rewind back to the time before I actually met up with them. I was alone, walking and loitering around Pyramid outlets while waiting for the others to arrive when suddenly a guy, I guess in his mid-twenties, approached me and called me "leng lui" = =". I just took a glance and continued walking without answering him. Then, again, he called me. Eventually, I just turned my head a little sideways and gave him a forced smile. (At that time, my heart was boiling as he was disturbing my peaceful stroll = ="...almost felt like kicking his ass). All of a sudden, he started pouring out sweet talks like those guys who want to get a girl for a one-night-stand and asked if I can give him my phone number. What the heck!!?? I think I actually gave him a pretty mean look and simply declined his request by saying, " I'm sorry but I do not simply give my phone number to complete stranger" . I hastened my pace and just continued walking without turning one bit to look at him, just kept straight and walked, hoping that he would stop following me. Thankfully, he did and bid me goodbye. (Shoo!! Mr.Potato. >.<). Once I returned home, I told my parents about the incident. Honestly speaking, I kind of regretted that I even spoked to him when he asked for my phone number. I should have just kept silent and waved him a complete NO. (feeling stupid when I think about it) These people, in my opinion, do not deserve my acquaintance. So, to the girls out there, please be careful and stay alert at all times whenever you are alone by yourself. I was lucky that nothing happened to me. In a more serious case, I might have been hypnotised and brought to somewhere else. You could have guess what happens from then on. All in all, from today's lesson, do not talk or even look at stranger who suddenly come approaching you for such intentions. God bless.

Vague Dream

Ever wonder what will you do if you are finding yourself diverging outwards from your "dream"? This, I guess, is what I'm going through right now. No idea what to do or choose, no idea what appropriate action to be taken at this time when its so near to entering University. One word, predicament. The chances of me being offered Biomedical Science course by local public University is, I can say,a really slim one. So I am preparing myself being offered biotechnology course in Sabah instead since I put it as my 3rd choice.

On Saturday, as I was reading the Star newspaper, I took out the pull-out section (StarJobs) and started flipping through it. I just scanned through the variety of jobs posted, trying to look out for any job vacancies relating to biotechnology, but not much up to its content. Oh well, I did come upon a job known as Medical Product Specialist under a BioTech company but as I read in detail, the job scope actually includes being a sales representative too. Now, this is not something that I want to do, particularly for a person like me who does not take a liking to doing sales. I just aim to be part of a research team without having to be involve with any of the marketing sector.

But in any case, my dream of being one of the research member for diseases since I was young, just seems to be a distant and dim star which feels so unlikely to be reached by my hands. To live up one's dream requires all strong personalities. Determination, hardwork, resolute efforts and even talent are certainly some values that I lacked of. All I can do now is to hope that I will stop lingering in predicament and wish for the best for my UPU result. What awaits me on the other side of the mountain, I shall let destiny to decide.

karaoke at neway

these are just the pictures. lazy to blog about it. but i guess you can get a picture of how was it ^^ (it was on 3/6/2009)

Cuckoo Clock

Dearest cuckoo clock,
Minutes ticking away,
As I now sitting,
On my beloved cushioned chair,
Starin' blankly towards nothing,
Hoping to come to a conclusion
of anything.

Oh dearest cuckoo clock,
My one and only friend,
That's always by my side,
Looming around me,
From time to time,
At times, lifting my feet of the ground,
And at times, pulling me back to reality sound,

Dearest cuckoo clock,
My past, present and future,
Will I for once,
Be able to leave you aside?
And continue walking on the road,
Without you,
My dearest cuckoo clock.

hey ppl~

I have just updated my blog's layout, or rather customized it. ^^ If you wish to leave your comments, please do so. I would like to hear your opinion on what I should do to improve my blog's layout and other stuff that I do not know. Hope to hear from ya! *hugz*

what a day~

Ok...honestly speaking, today, I EVENTUALLY or better said as MIRACLELY, woke up early...again I repeat EARLY to go for basketball lol. It was OKAY as I am not a keen basketball player. Just for the fun of it and to kill time...if not I wouldnt know how am I suppose to spend my time whole day at home, seriously. Not forgetting that I was actually pretty hungry too at that time. Well, no one noticed T.T but I could actually ordered something to bite too when we were at the Al-something restaurant, whatever name it is, I can't remember. Now, I have to decide whether to go for NS reunion at Pyramid this coming Monday, not sure if my parents allow me to go. But I will just leave the matter until Sunday to make my final decision ^^...feeling lazy to think about it now. That's all for today...a short one, in my opinion. Tata.

definition of life as a human, wat exactly it is?

Life, as I start asking myself, what does it really means? Where does it leads me to? Is it just like what other church-goers said, a path or guidance that was laid by God before we even step foot on earth? What is destiny? What is dream? As all these questions loom around my head, spinning, crying for an answer to what it truly means, I still couldnt quite understand what exactly the meaning of me being here, the planet named Earth since before ancient times.

While I start to ponder about my meaning of existence, I came across a show entitled "The Journey To The Center Of The Universe" on National Geographics channel. It was really interesting as it exposed me to the knowledge of knowing how seriously VAST is the universe actually is. I was glued to the tv for 2 whole hours just for the show and I still can't get enough of it actually. Now, it made me wonder how small we human beings are compared to the size of the universe that only can be measurable in light years (just got to know that 1 light year = 1000km). We seem to be as small as an atom that are just pulled to the grounds by Earth's magnetic force. We wont even be able to see humans from outer space just like we cant see microorganisms with naked eye.

Now think again, how exactly humans are borned? Through millions or billions or even trillions of years of evolutionary changes? Then, how exactly we, living things (includes all species on earth) actually grown to be able to hv such complex systems in our bodies? Does it mean that "we" naturally adapt to the environment by natural selection that i studied in school?Or was it some other factors contributing to our existence now? Just like the story of Adam and Eve. Nonetheless, it is so fascinating to think that our life might actually began from non-living elements or maybe microorganisms that are stucked inactive on asteroids which then collides with other asteroids and slowly form our home, and when the earth warms up to a temperate weather, microorganisms starts to multiply and evolve into a more matured and steady form of organism ie. multicells creatures. Steadily obtaining nutritious elements from the soil and air to continue evolving. Everything seems to placed perfectly...the distance from the sun which makes earth habitable, or else we will hv died of extreme hotness or frozen to death...more like...we could not even start our stories of life. Are all these planned by God? Or do we just based on the Big Bang theory?

Whenever I talk about this topic, it is so wide that I can't cover all with my limited capacity of knowledge that I have now. I doubt I might not even be able to fully understand it throughout my life. From God beliefs to science, meditation to prayers, till now, no one can truly explain the incidents and also the purpose of man-kind of earth. We all know that one day...in the future, the earth and also our galaxy (Milkyway) will also reach its golden age and die. Will our man-kind survive? Or just perish into thin air together with our past and future, with not even a single clue that we "humans" do once exist? I really hope that I can find an answer to the questions before I exhaled by last breath on earth. Or perhaps...I will only know the answer during my after-life? Who knows..haha. But all I know is that I have to keep believing that there is a reason to all these happenings around the world. Maybe it is just according to what a book stated, God put us here, to learn, to experience, to feel, whether if its emotionally or physically so that when we return to His side, we will be able to tell our stories.