Reminiscense

from top to bottom:

1) yum char with Marcus at the Curve

2) Marcus trying out the marcchiato ^^

3) My 19th bday outing at Pyramid, Secret Recipe

4) Natalie's 20th bday celebration

5) yum char at lorong 100 tahun

videos taken by ~pekyee~

Walking towards tomorrow

Picture taken and edited by Byran Kwon.

Point of Separation

Today, that is wednesday (24th of June 2009), I went out for the last outing before my friends leave for their respective universities. While some are taking flights, some are also driving to their destinations. The outing was and is, a heart-wrenching day for me, as time passed just like rain washes over the mountains. First, we had lunch at Pasta de Gohan, ate until real full ^^. Then, the plan is followed by separating into two groups, the guys (except Bryan) went for the pool and the girls went shopping. After that, we gathered back once again before separating into two groups again, that is, bowling and the other, continue shopping. Since I have nothing left to buy, I went for bowling. The 1st round of the game was a complete disaster, haha, but I managed to keep up in the 2nd round though, by winning the 2nd round (yay! defeated bryan and panda bro ekeke). Then, after bowling, some guys went for archery and some of us just watched them played. Bryan was pretty consistent ^^. Later around 7pm or so, we decided to have dinner at Sakae Sushi. Eventhough Grace was not feeling well mid-way through the dinner, but everything was fun. We chatted, we laughed, we joked, talked about all kinds of stuff, and before we realised, minute by minute, the time passed quickly. Before we knew it, it was time to part and this was the moment where everyone gave their wishes to one another. We also took tonnes of pictures and did group hugs ^^. Well, no matter where we go, or when, I believe that all of us will remember this day and cherish it in the bottom of our heart. God bless all of you my dear friends, and all the best in your future undertakings =). *hugz*

Absolute zero of nothingness

The result of the upu is out! And...nope! I didn't get anything. Not given a course out of all 8 choices. Some may say I made the wrong choices for the courses. However, IMO what is wrong and what is right? I only put the courses that I can accept from them, is that a crime? Courses like microbiology and biochemistry, I thought I might be able to get it at the very least, but an ABSOLUTE reject. Unsuccessful. Even my friends who scored so well in their STPM got some courses which are actually meant for average scorers initially. I wonder what happened. Did the application for USM causes all this ruckus? Will I actually able to get into one of their places if I hadn't applied for USM? Go figure. Right now, I'm just left with the option of going to NUS. Its a reputable university worldwide but my family will have to burden themselves to support for my accommodation and living expenses in Singapore, and I really didn't want to end up like this but with the situation right now, all I can say is, a total disappointment. Just pray that the appeal through e-rayuan will have a fruitful result. Or else, like any other malaysian chinese, I will too end up staying in Singapore.

NS Gathering and a Git!

I went for a gathering with my NS friends today who came all the way from kajang and Malacca to meet up at Sunway Pyramid. We had lunch at Gasoline and talked about loads of stuff, from academics to nonsensical jokes. Now, rewind back to the time before I actually met up with them. I was alone, walking and loitering around Pyramid outlets while waiting for the others to arrive when suddenly a guy, I guess in his mid-twenties, approached me and called me "leng lui" = =". I just took a glance and continued walking without answering him. Then, again, he called me. Eventually, I just turned my head a little sideways and gave him a forced smile. (At that time, my heart was boiling as he was disturbing my peaceful stroll = ="...almost felt like kicking his ass). All of a sudden, he started pouring out sweet talks like those guys who want to get a girl for a one-night-stand and asked if I can give him my phone number. What the heck!!?? I think I actually gave him a pretty mean look and simply declined his request by saying, " I'm sorry but I do not simply give my phone number to complete stranger" . I hastened my pace and just continued walking without turning one bit to look at him, just kept straight and walked, hoping that he would stop following me. Thankfully, he did and bid me goodbye. (Shoo!! Mr.Potato. >.<). Once I returned home, I told my parents about the incident. Honestly speaking, I kind of regretted that I even spoked to him when he asked for my phone number. I should have just kept silent and waved him a complete NO. (feeling stupid when I think about it) These people, in my opinion, do not deserve my acquaintance. So, to the girls out there, please be careful and stay alert at all times whenever you are alone by yourself. I was lucky that nothing happened to me. In a more serious case, I might have been hypnotised and brought to somewhere else. You could have guess what happens from then on. All in all, from today's lesson, do not talk or even look at stranger who suddenly come approaching you for such intentions. God bless.

Vague Dream

Ever wonder what will you do if you are finding yourself diverging outwards from your "dream"? This, I guess, is what I'm going through right now. No idea what to do or choose, no idea what appropriate action to be taken at this time when its so near to entering University. One word, predicament. The chances of me being offered Biomedical Science course by local public University is, I can say,a really slim one. So I am preparing myself being offered biotechnology course in Sabah instead since I put it as my 3rd choice.

On Saturday, as I was reading the Star newspaper, I took out the pull-out section (StarJobs) and started flipping through it. I just scanned through the variety of jobs posted, trying to look out for any job vacancies relating to biotechnology, but not much up to its content. Oh well, I did come upon a job known as Medical Product Specialist under a BioTech company but as I read in detail, the job scope actually includes being a sales representative too. Now, this is not something that I want to do, particularly for a person like me who does not take a liking to doing sales. I just aim to be part of a research team without having to be involve with any of the marketing sector.

But in any case, my dream of being one of the research member for diseases since I was young, just seems to be a distant and dim star which feels so unlikely to be reached by my hands. To live up one's dream requires all strong personalities. Determination, hardwork, resolute efforts and even talent are certainly some values that I lacked of. All I can do now is to hope that I will stop lingering in predicament and wish for the best for my UPU result. What awaits me on the other side of the mountain, I shall let destiny to decide.

karaoke at neway

these are just the pictures. lazy to blog about it. but i guess you can get a picture of how was it ^^ (it was on 3/6/2009)

Cuckoo Clock

Dearest cuckoo clock,
Minutes ticking away,
As I now sitting,
On my beloved cushioned chair,
Starin' blankly towards nothing,
Hoping to come to a conclusion
of anything.

Oh dearest cuckoo clock,
My one and only friend,
That's always by my side,
Looming around me,
From time to time,
At times, lifting my feet of the ground,
And at times, pulling me back to reality sound,

Dearest cuckoo clock,
My past, present and future,
Will I for once,
Be able to leave you aside?
And continue walking on the road,
Without you,
My dearest cuckoo clock.

hey ppl~

I have just updated my blog's layout, or rather customized it. ^^ If you wish to leave your comments, please do so. I would like to hear your opinion on what I should do to improve my blog's layout and other stuff that I do not know. Hope to hear from ya! *hugz*

what a day~

Ok...honestly speaking, today, I EVENTUALLY or better said as MIRACLELY, woke up early...again I repeat EARLY to go for basketball lol. It was OKAY as I am not a keen basketball player. Just for the fun of it and to kill time...if not I wouldnt know how am I suppose to spend my time whole day at home, seriously. Not forgetting that I was actually pretty hungry too at that time. Well, no one noticed T.T but I could actually ordered something to bite too when we were at the Al-something restaurant, whatever name it is, I can't remember. Now, I have to decide whether to go for NS reunion at Pyramid this coming Monday, not sure if my parents allow me to go. But I will just leave the matter until Sunday to make my final decision ^^...feeling lazy to think about it now. That's all for today...a short one, in my opinion. Tata.

definition of life as a human, wat exactly it is?

Life, as I start asking myself, what does it really means? Where does it leads me to? Is it just like what other church-goers said, a path or guidance that was laid by God before we even step foot on earth? What is destiny? What is dream? As all these questions loom around my head, spinning, crying for an answer to what it truly means, I still couldnt quite understand what exactly the meaning of me being here, the planet named Earth since before ancient times.

While I start to ponder about my meaning of existence, I came across a show entitled "The Journey To The Center Of The Universe" on National Geographics channel. It was really interesting as it exposed me to the knowledge of knowing how seriously VAST is the universe actually is. I was glued to the tv for 2 whole hours just for the show and I still can't get enough of it actually. Now, it made me wonder how small we human beings are compared to the size of the universe that only can be measurable in light years (just got to know that 1 light year = 1000km). We seem to be as small as an atom that are just pulled to the grounds by Earth's magnetic force. We wont even be able to see humans from outer space just like we cant see microorganisms with naked eye.

Now think again, how exactly humans are borned? Through millions or billions or even trillions of years of evolutionary changes? Then, how exactly we, living things (includes all species on earth) actually grown to be able to hv such complex systems in our bodies? Does it mean that "we" naturally adapt to the environment by natural selection that i studied in school?Or was it some other factors contributing to our existence now? Just like the story of Adam and Eve. Nonetheless, it is so fascinating to think that our life might actually began from non-living elements or maybe microorganisms that are stucked inactive on asteroids which then collides with other asteroids and slowly form our home, and when the earth warms up to a temperate weather, microorganisms starts to multiply and evolve into a more matured and steady form of organism ie. multicells creatures. Steadily obtaining nutritious elements from the soil and air to continue evolving. Everything seems to placed perfectly...the distance from the sun which makes earth habitable, or else we will hv died of extreme hotness or frozen to death...more like...we could not even start our stories of life. Are all these planned by God? Or do we just based on the Big Bang theory?

Whenever I talk about this topic, it is so wide that I can't cover all with my limited capacity of knowledge that I have now. I doubt I might not even be able to fully understand it throughout my life. From God beliefs to science, meditation to prayers, till now, no one can truly explain the incidents and also the purpose of man-kind of earth. We all know that one day...in the future, the earth and also our galaxy (Milkyway) will also reach its golden age and die. Will our man-kind survive? Or just perish into thin air together with our past and future, with not even a single clue that we "humans" do once exist? I really hope that I can find an answer to the questions before I exhaled by last breath on earth. Or perhaps...I will only know the answer during my after-life? Who knows..haha. But all I know is that I have to keep believing that there is a reason to all these happenings around the world. Maybe it is just according to what a book stated, God put us here, to learn, to experience, to feel, whether if its emotionally or physically so that when we return to His side, we will be able to tell our stories.